Day 36

When I was in grade school my family lived in a cute yellow and white, single-wide trailer.  I have a LOT of fond memories from when I lived there like: the yellow shag carpet that I would lay on when I was sick; the old black vinyl couch that I would run and do somersaults on; and the bedroom that I shared with my sister where we would prop open the window with a stick.  But my favorite spot was under the bathroom counter where there was an opening that mom had strung a little curtain to cover and that is where I would hide and pretend I was in another world.


Hiding to play pretend was fun, but hiding to escape punishment was miserable.  I think it felt like I would age a million years when I would wait under that counter and listen for Mama’s steps down the yellow shag carpet to find me.  I would hold my breath and hope to die before I’d have to go to her bedroom and get my punishment.  And let me just tell you, I was ALWAYS in trouble, so I held my breath a lot.  (It’s probably why I am so dumb today and can’t remember anything, imagine the brain cells I killed!)

“A Psalm of David, Maschil. Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.”  Psalms 32:1

I read Psalm 32 where David is instructing us about forgiveness of sin and I started remembering all the silly things I have done in my lifetime.  How thankful I am for Christ’s sacrifice and what it means to me!

To wit, that God was in Christ, reconciling the world unto himself, not imputing their trespasses unto them; and hath committed unto us the word of reconciliation.”                       2 Corinthians 5:19

It is a wonderful feeling to have our sins covered by Christ’s blood!

But it is an awful feeling when WE try and cover up something and don’t go to God and confess it as His children isn’t it?

Have you ever tried to live with unconfessed sin?  It’s miserable!

David refers to that feeling in verse 3.

“When I kept silence, my bones waxed old through my roaring all the day long.”          Psalms 32:3

I remember once in our old trailer that I went to the kitchen to play with something in the sink.  I can’t remember what it was that I forced down the drain, but I remember it got clogged.  I hunted under the cabinet for something to fix it and I found some lye.  As I placed it in the sink, I got some on my right ring finger and MAN it burned.  Actually, to this day, I can still tell where it ate away at my cuticle.  It reminds me of my foolishness every time I rub my thumb over it.  I cried and cried as I tried washing that lye off my hand.  I am sure Mama could have helped me, but I was afraid my finger wouldn’t be the only body part that would be stinging once she found out what I had done, so I suffered and hid it.  Mom, if you are reading this, it’s likely you never knew until today.  Please don’t get Dad’s belt! LOL

Do you ever stop and wonder why we try and hide sin from God?  Why do we want to be out of step with Him?  He ALREADY knows about the sin because Jesus already bore the penalty and had to pay for it, so why do we NEEDLESSLY try and cover it up?

I think it boils down to the fact that we are afraid of what people will think more than we care about our relationship with God.

And you know what proves my point?

Altar calls.

I have noticed over the last year as we have traveled extensively to churches across America that Christians are not going to the altar anymore.  Either we have become very  righteous and holy or very complacent with our sin.

Just a couple of weeks ago I was in a conference and God was dealing with me about something He wants me to accomplish in our ministry in Brazil.  And I wanted to go to the altar and pray, but the devil whispered in my ear (not literally) “Sheri, what will people think if you go to the altar after that message?”  It made me SO MAD!  I’ve never been ashamed of going to the altar and praying and I really haven’t ever cared if people think I am down there getting my sorry self right with God.  They won’t answer to Him for my life, I will….but there I was at that conference and doubting wether or not to go pray!  It was ridiculous!  No one had been frequenting the altar that week so I battled back and forth until the last note was played on the piano and I finished singing my lies that I would surrender all.  What a hypocrite.  It tortured me through the next day.

I went to the altar the next night as soon as the invitation started and I poured my heart out to God. It wasn’t long before I felt someone kneeling beside me. My daughter had followed me and was surrendering her life to go to Brazil if God should desire it of her.

THAT is why the devil was messing with my thoughts.  He didn’t want Amelia to get help either.

Sometimes struggling with something has nothing to do with us as much as it does with someone else.

Think about it.

A mom struggling with sin becomes harsh in the home.  The children react to that mean spirit and they can rebel against it.

A husband struggling with sin will become distant in the home and the wife will react to it and put up walls and barriers to protect herself out of fear of betrayal.  The the children will react to them both and feel unloved and seek others for acceptance.

It is nothing more than a vicious cycle directed by Satan himself as he convinces us to remain complacent with hiding our sin.

But David teaches us that confession is needed.

“I acknowledged my sin unto thee, and mine iniquity have I not hid. I said, I will confess my transgressions unto the LORD; and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin. Selah.”        Psalms 32:5

He goes on to instruct us that we shouldn’t be like a horse or mule when it comes to doing what is right.  In other words, we shouldn’t resist conviction of the Holy Spirit in our lives because eventually, God is going to go get the belt.

“For if we would judge ourselves, we should not be judged. But when we are judged, we are chastened of the Lord, that we should not be condemned with the world.”                  1 Corinthians 11:31-32

Confession should be a daily part of our walk with God.  Period.

We all sin and we all need to make it right.  If for no other reason, so that we can pray!

“If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me:”  Psalms 66:18

And there is JOY in confession and cleansing!

“Be glad in the LORD, and rejoice, ye righteous: and shout for joy, all ye that are upright in heart.”  Psalms 32:11

I have too much at stake not to pray.  So my heart has got to stay right with God so I can pray for my children, Brazil and others.  How selfish would I be if I wanted to hang on to my sin more than I care about my own children or ministry?

Do you have something you KNOW you need to confess and get right with the Lord? Then do it!  Don’t waste another day trying to hide it and make it look normal.  Just go ahead and do business with God.

The more Christians in the world who would actively seek to confess and live in the Spirit would result in more light that would be brightly shining to those who still don’t know the Savior that died for all their sins too.  And don’t we want that light to shine as bright and as far as it possibly can?

Until Next Time, Lord willing,



Today’s reading: Exodus 13-14 / II Samuel 8 / Psalm 34 / Acts 9

2 thoughts on “Day 36

  1. Sharon Loyd

    I had no idea of the lye. I don’t remember that we had any under the sink, either. Those were good days…..teaching days, learning days …..all mixed together.


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